Spelling Bee - Can you spell a L-E-T-D-O-W-N

January 7th, 2008 admin

Kavita and I saw the Broadway musical, “The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee”, at the Memorial Auditorium in Raleigh’s downtown yesterday. We bought the cheapest tickets ($21), but given that the auditorium was almost half empty, it was not hard to move down closer to the stage. I was not having as much fun as I normally do at musicals and theatre. I wondered if getting closer might help us catch some subtle expressions which I was missing, and, therefore, not enjoying the play as much. We did move closer to the stage, about 20 minutes into the show, of course, trying to choose an appropriate time so as to least disturb the thin audience and the performers.

However, the show never really managed to significantly challenge my expectations from a play. There were moments where it was inspiring, but most of it was a drag. The storyline, whatever little there was of it, was linear, going through each character’s circumstances and personalities one by one. There was hardly any complex, thought-provoking, interaction between the characters. The ballad, called the “The I Love You Song”, where one of the contestants remembers her mother who is in far-away India, seeking enlightenment, is powerful. Another sequence that I liked was one where a contestant, who, before spelling a word, always writes it on the floor using his “magical” right foot, does it in super slow motion. The sequence starts off at normal speed, ramps up in speed to a frenzy, and then slows down to a low frequency stupor, before rebounding to normal. The songs were not awe-inspiring, in general, and some dialogues bordered on being vulgar.

The stage and props remained quite static throughout, with not much in terms of visual impact. The literary impact, which must have been the main motivation behind making this a play, instead of letting it stay in the book that it originates from, was not terribly impressive either. I am sure I did not get all the subtle jokes, but before I denigrate myself too much, let me add that I did not want to go the show having done any homework. I went there to be entertained; if I did not catch all the subtle jokes, maybe they were too subtle. There was one piece of clever wordplay, where “what” is spelled by taking the w from a word where w is silent, h is taken from a word in which h is silent and so on. Such a “what” is never heard, claimed the contestant. Clever, but such cleverness would do just as well staying in a book. The theatre is supposed to be a feast for the eye and the ear, thought-provoking and awe-inspiring. This play does not manage to consistently meet such criteria, although it grazes those thresholds once in a while. There were some members from the audience who participate in the early stages of the spelling bee, providing some opportunity for seemingly impromptu, but potentially well-rehearsed, jokes, before their pre-planned elimination. Some of the commentary and references were from surprisingly recent political events. Participation by some members of the audience and this sensitivity to current news indicates that the script for the play lends itself to some modification and improvization.

Reviews I have read online were surprisingly positive, even rave, about the show. This is a small-budget production; maybe my expecting it to be comparable to the few other plays I have seen - “Phantom of the Opera”, “42nd Street” and “Annie Get Your Gun” - was wrong. However, even then, given that the tickets were priced just as any regular show would be ($21 to $70), I just did not guess that it would be a low-budget production. I am glad we did not buy more expensive tickets. I feel that plays are over-priced in the US. Except for one of the contestants walking into the audience throwing candy, most of the action was on the stage, which stayed pretty much unchanged as well. I do not see why I needed to go there in person to watch this show, when I could have probably seen it clearer, and, for less, on a DVD, feeling just as involved.

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The Monk who was not much of a storyteller

September 10th, 2006 admin

Monk Cover ImageThe much acclaimed book, “The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari” by Robin S. Sharma, came to my attention when my wife’s cousin and my Uncle, both, recommended it. I probably raised my hopes too much because upon reading half the book, I recognized a sense of disappointment with myself. I had expected this book to be mesmerizing tale, a story of a monk revealing a hard-earned but deceptively simple viewpoint on how to live. With so many books that try to approach this subject, I had not heard much about the others. I was, therefore, expecting this book to be truly original.I was disappointed by several aspects of the book. Firstly, it is not a story. The lessons are not interpreted by the experiences of the characters as they face life, but rather, the lessons are handed down to the reader on a platter, more like any other self-help book. The book starts off as a story, but within a few quick pages settles into a conversation between a teacher and a student. A few pages further and the conversation shrinks to mainly a monologue by the teacher, with the student unfailingly accepting all the lessons, and obediently egging the teacher to go on. If this was how the book was to be, I do not see the pretense of attempting a story. It would have been to the benefit of the reader if the book were written in the form of a sermon, like most self-help books are.

Second reason for my feeling let down was the writing style. I read on the back cover that Robin Sharma is an electrifying speaker. I listened to some of his speeches on his website and I agree that he speaks very well. He is not, however, and electrifying author. The book, a conversation as it is, comes across as artificial. Two people speaking like a perfect teacher and a perfect student. Speech gliding between realistic wisecracks and unbelievably long-winded paragraphs of complex, flowery constructions and quotations quoted and embraced with unerring finality, push the characters, hurriedly created as they are, further away from a reader. The writing, on top of being unbelievable as speech, is itself quite weak. The book gives us a sense of being written hurriedly to meet a deadline. The style is clearly that of a PowerPoint presentation with bulleted highlights that form the skeleton of the book. Exploration of each of these bulleted and sub-bulleted lists adds the bulk. The exploration, however, is quite shallow and one-dimensional. What I mean by shallow is that the meaning of a bulleted item is explored in an obvious, rather redundant and repetitive way. It often reduces to “Do X. Doing X will improve your life in the following ways…” What I mean by one-dimensional is that the various bullets and sub-bullets that make up the chapters and sections of the chapters, are left disjoint. The only attempt to tie them together is of the type, “Do X and Y and Z all together.” The book has been written not for the really interested, but rather for those accustomed to an executive-summary style of presentations. Quick and to the point. It is, in some sense, a medicine the patient wants rather than the one the patient needs.

Another reason I was a little taken aback at least at the beginning of the book, was that the author relies on a stereotyped image of sages and monasteries in India that matches the western audience’s existing ideas on the topic. So the convenience of unreachable, eternally blissful, centenarian sages living in huts made of flowers in the lap of an unexplored valley in the heavenly Himalayas makes the lessons so much more authentic? I think it takes away from a lesson it’s believability. It dilutes an otherwise perfect thought.

In attempting to infuse authenticity to the teachings by letting these perfect sages be the originators of the thoughts presented in the book, the author’s lack of imagination reflects poorly on these actualized beings. The author comes up with a supposedly symbolic story of a Sumo wrestler and his adventures in a garden. The imagery is so wild and the associations between the symbols and the teachings so hard to understand, let alone remember, that the only reason I can think of for such imagery is to allow memorization by incredulity. The story is so feebly constructed that the audacity of actually publishing it and going with it as the theme, makes it stand out. Think of it like that irritating TV ad which is so irritating that you cannot forget it. On top of this, the author seems to have plagiarized some stories. One is Oscar Wilde’s “The Selfish Giant”, which is related as an ancient Indian tale towards the end of chapter 9. The others - like the protagonist pouring tea into a cup until the cup overflows on to the saucer, on to the table, and eventually, and unnecessarily, on to the Persian rug or the one where a child starts building a table for his parents so they can sit separately during dinner time just like his grandmother is being asked to today - I have read these stories before. Maybe they are old enough to be used as your own, without any copyright issues. But still, the lack of imagination disappointed me.

Although I have been pointing out the weaknesses of the book so far, there are some strengths. The most important strength of course is that the main ideas presented are, all said and done, good. The ideas come from various sources and different times. The book serves therefore as a collection of some sensible thoughts. The reader has to be careful to fish for these great thoughts hidden under the unimaginative, artificial, hurried, bulleted writing style and ponder upon those. Another positive I recall was seeing suggestions for other books the reader may read. The suggested readings included - “The Stories of My Experiments with Truth” by M. K. Gandhi, “Siddhartha” by Herman Hesse and writings of Ben Franklin, Marcus Aurelius and Seneca. I have read “Siddhartha” and think it was a thought provoking read.

I must add that I did complete reading the book and my current opinion about the book is more forgiving than the one I had after my first session with the book. Partly, the reason was I adjusted to the tone and style of the book when I picked it up again and overcame my self-imposed expectations from the book. Partly the reason was that the main ideas in the book are good. It was the presentation of the ideas that was the issue I still had at the end of the read.

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A beautiful movie - The Mortorcycle Diaries

September 2nd, 2006 admin

The Motorcycle Diaries is a movie that I rank right beside Amelie as one of the better movies I have seen. The haunting music of the track “De Usuahia A La Quiaca” has the edge-of-the-world feel to it that the whole movie carries. The movie is based on a real journey and draws form the written record of the travels. The surreal beauty of South America is revealed at every turn the two young travelers make during their 10,000 km journey. The journey, both physical and philosophical, has the freshness, the honesty and the unpredictability that would make you beileve that you were journeying with the two young men - Ernesto Guevara and Alberto Granado. Ernesto, I learnt, went on to become a part of the Cuban Revolution, and a communist leader. This movie gives us glimpses of the man he was going to become, and takes us through the journey that had a big impact on his philosophy. It is a story of companionship, bravery, compassion and self-realization. Alberto, his companion is an adventure-loving, happy-go-lucky, clever-talking guy who amidst his carefree ways sees Ernesto morphing into the leader he was going to become. I highly recommend it.

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A House for Mr. Biswas by V. S. Naipaul

August 5th, 2006 admin

A House For Mr Biswas Cover ImageMy friends Ashwin and Tania recommended this book and the following is from an email I wrote to them after reading the book.How goes life? Or in Mohun Biswas’s words, “How life, maan?”. I am still struggling to figure out the book. The tragi-comic look at the entire life of a man, leaves you wondering if it is a happy ending, a sad ending or the less categorizable, yet more recognizable ending. Endings as they typically are in real life, sadly abrupt in a way, never having achieved life’s true potential, yet satisfyingly complete, having achieved the one goal in his life. The beautiful and believable sense of humour, never taking life too seriously, is the only way he gets through life, which is otherwise overwhelmingly complicated, sad and painful.

When I was about a third of my way into the book, I was not sure why I was reading it. It seemed to have no tangible theme, too many characters and a primarily depressing story (if you could call it a story). It was as if the author picked up reams of paper and just wrote what came to his mind, letting the events and narrative flow which ever way they chose to. It was not until Mr. Biswas started tasting “victories” that I got hooked. Victories is a big word, for what were primarily small satisfactions in life - a small job, a good comeback, an occasional acknowledgement, an intelligent son, temporary privacy. These inconsequential satisfactions, in an intricate net of inconsequential emotions from inconsequential people in an elaborate yet equally inconsequential family define the few moments of joy in Mr. Biswas’ life. And the theme of the book seemed to emerge.

Mr. Biswas lives his short life, struggling for a sense of self and place. He is constantly being pulled down, not by an evil villain, not by a calamity of nature, not by a debilitating disease. He struggles against the real horrors of life, its inconsequential realness, its uncontrollable meandering, its invincible boredom. He fights. The fights he puts up are spirited. He loses some. He wins some. He laughs, he cries, he is elated, he is depressed, and yet he never gives in. He is a hero who fought grinding, never-ending battles which really did not win him anything, but at the same time won him the only thing he could hope for in his condition. A purpose. A goal. Something to look forward to. Something to live for. The beauty of the story and the writing is its truthfulness. It brings out the extraordinary in ordinary man’s ordinary life. One puts down the book with a sense of calm and understanding that is comparable to one you draw from a book on philosophy. “A House for Mr Biswas” is a strangely satisfying read that grows on you as you delve deeper into Mohun Biswas’s travails, and leaves you with an almost involved attachment to him, his family and his life.

V. S. Naipaul writes with a thin layer of believable humour protecting the characters and the readers from the insane helplessness of certain situations. The descriptions of the various regions of the J-shaped tiny island of Trinidad that Mr. Biswas spends his entire life in, the dialect, the social structure, the family structure and the life of a Hindu family Mr. Biswas marries into is expertly intertwined with the story. The strength of this book is the author’s ability to truthfully represent the seemingly purposeless life of a man, and yet bring out the the purpose in his life and that of every human being.

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The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

June 3rd, 2006 admin

The Kite Runner - Cover Image “Reading this book, tears flow down unabated and without warning …”, Kavita had informed me. “But it is such a beautiful story”, she had added. I was looking for a window into the people and politics, culture and psyche of Afghanistan, and this book seemed to promise a mix of both a “beautiful story” and “a window”. I picked it up at Borders in Cary, NC, and as I normally do, started to read it over a weekend in the store. The next weekend, less than even halfway through the novel, I bought it.Though Afghanistan, its people and their ways add colour and concrete to the story, the main themes of the story are timeless and universal - the pleasure of friendship, the pain of squandering it, of coming to terms with one’s true self, of growing up, of sacrifice, of ideals, of living up to those ideals. Amir, the protagonist of the novel, grows up in the 60’s and early 70’s in Afghanistan, where he lives in a big house with his father, their servant Ali and Ali’s son Hassan. Amir finds unfailing and radiant loyalty and friendship in Hassan. “Baba”, as Amir calls his father, is the ideal human being in Amir’s eyes, as he grows up. Amir strives to live up to his father’s expectations. The story winds its way through Amir’s childhood, Hassan’s unquestioning friendship, Amir’s relation with his father and Ali, through political turmoil in Afghanistan, how it affects all the people Amir knows, Amir’s youth in the USA, and his search for something that he is desperately missing in life - an atonement for his sins which brings him back to his motherland and the final redemption. Amir helps us all grow up a little, as he discovers what he has lost along the way and what he has gained. The development of his morality and values, shaped by self-reflection and instinct, by scheming and by accident, is a wonderful mirror into our own values and how we pick them up.

The book is powerful and honest, even to the point of being brutal. The language caresses the story to flow from one evocative scene to the next. The scenes are so real, it is like watching a movie. This book could be and probably should be made into a movie. It does drive you to the verge of tears at places. A story that is powerful and haunting yet tender and very human.

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Siddhartha by Herman Hesse

May 21st, 2006 admin

Siddhartha Cover Image Siddhartha is the story of a young Brahmin boy, Siddhartha, and his personal quest for peace. In his early adulthood he discerns oncoming discontent. He realizes that the best intent and efforts on the part of his family, his pious father, his learned teachers, the glorious writings in all sacred books, would not be able to satisfy his search for meaning, his search for Brahman. The main doctrine in the book, which makes many critics call this book a harmonious blend of Eastern and Western Philosophies, is that true wisdom can not be taught. It exists, but has to be reached by each person by his or her own path.Siddhartha’s journey takes us through his mastery of Brahmin rituals early in his life, but which still leave him uncertain and wanting. Then he gives up his notion of self, and becomes a Samana. A wanderer. He learns to overcome the throes of hunger and thirst, the urge to speak, and practices patience. After several years of mastering the life of a Samana, he realizes that he has not yet found an answer to satisfy his sense of purpose in life. He meets Gotama, the Buddha, during that time and has a very interesting conversation, where he accepts graciously the greatness of the Buddha for achieving his end in life, but disagrees respectfully with the Buddha about the ability to impart wisdom through teachings of any kind. Buddha acknowledges Siddhartha’s point of view and lets him continue his search. This discussion between Siddhartha and the Buddha is a pivotal point in the book. The fact that Siddhartha shares the same first name and to some extent the same pangs of soul-searching as the Buddha, indicates that it is no coincidence that Herman Hesse chose to name the protagonist of this story so. He is really probably trying to say how the supposedly Western concepts of individualism and freedom of thought, were really not just tolerated by the Eastern philosophies as when the Buddha acknowledges Siddhartha’s personal quest, but indeed, are the origin of the Eastern philosophies. Gotama, before he became the Buddha (which literally means the Enlightened One), went through several experiences in life that left him unsatisfied and with a sense of purposeless rote, just as the experiences Siddhartha went through. The rituals, the mythology, the communal conformity and sense of peace in humble acceptance of fate that mark Eastern religions and philosophies, the author probably argues, only bring some order to an otherwise fierce sense of individualism, and an undercurrent of potentially chaotic search for one’s own religion.

Siddhartha, tires of the Samana philosophy, for even the elder Samanas in his company are second-handers, unsure about what they are doing, often just ending up tormenting their selves and bodies, out of sheer practice, than any inherent conviction. He then enters the world of sensual pleasure - learning from the courtesan Kamala, the art of love, from a merchant, the art of trade, and from yet others, the art of gambling. The tries to find satisfaction in any of these. He does for a while, while the experiences are new and he is constantly learning something. But when he has learnt all that others could teach him, he realizes there is still more he is capable of learning, and nobody but he himself must learn it.

He leaves the company of all monetary, bodily, intellectual pleasures for they were short-lived. He would master the art and then there was nothing to prove beyond that. He is attracted to the life of a ferryman who lives alone in a small hut by the river, tending to his boat, ferrying people across the river and listening to the river. Siddhartha too joins Vasudeva, the ferryman, and learns to ferry people across the river and listening to the river. Vasudeva lives a simple, yet happy life, and claims that the river has taught him everything he knows. This excites Siddhartha. The river as a teacher, really implies one has to listen to one’s innermost voice. Vasudeva and Siddhartha practice listening to the river together, and realize the true essence of life. The link between the eternal and the fleeting, the omnipresence of the Brahman. Siddhartha realizes the love for his child from Kamala, his father’s love for him when Siddhartha left him to be a Samana, his attempts to be a Samana, a Brahmana, a merchant, his attempts to find the final truth, were all just parts of an endless stream of events, with no particular start nor end. The unity of it all, the eternal presence of it all, the continual struggle, yet the continual acceptance of the struggle, that was his final discovery. He ends his journey having attained his peace.

In some sense, the ending did not make as much of an impact on me as I would have expected from a book that is as famous as this. Yet, is that not the greatest accolade one can give this book? Think about it. What was Siddhartha’s final answer, need not be my final understanding. And if the book teaches anything, that would be the main lesson. And so searching for a satisfying answer after reading this book is contradicting the “teachings” of the book. Hence I leave it at that. You read it, keep an open mind, and maybe it will help you unlock a little door on your own personal quest.

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Life of Pi by Yann Martel

May 14th, 2006 admin

LifeOfPi Cover Image I usually do not read pure fiction, where the pure involves fiction without any after-effects. Fiction that ends when the book ends is not something that excites me. But what is a story if not fiction. Be it facts or ideas, they become so much more tangible when served with a soup of characters, with their quirks and their passions, with incidents that resonate with something that every person can participate in, with a story. A yarn pulled out of thin air may often last longer than a string pulled out of rigid, limited spool of the collective observation. It’s the same with newspapers. They become a boring, tiresome and apparently pointless jumble of facts, unless the editorial tries to show a subjective view-point that ties together the brutal reality that the other reports blandly serve up, into something that makes a story. The reporters job is to be objective and precise. The editor can then provide his commentary. Not his facts, but his commentary. His story.I usually do not read pure fiction. This book is purely fictional, but reveals much more than any number of factual observations can ever attempt to. This book is not pure fiction. The after-effect is strong. The book provides answers. The answers are everywhere in the book, but never is it provided in a direct, authoritative tone. The answers are provided by raising simple yet pertinent questions. The hero of the book, shows us the meaning of belief and the reason for belief.

This book is difficult to categorize. I struggled to explain to my father over the phone tonight what this book is about. “Nanna, I finished reading this wonderful book called ‘The Life Of Pi’”. “OK, what it is about?”. “Well it is a fiction, a book on philosophy, on religion, on reason. Well it is a story of a kid in Pondicherry whose family decides to leave India due to Indira Gandhi’s imposition of The Emergency, and plan to settle in Canada. The father owns a zoo, so they decide to carry some of the animals along with them in a ship. The ship sinks and the kid alone survives, along with some other animals, most notably a Royal Bengal Tiger. The books relates the story of how the kid survives at sea for over 7 months. Well… but it is not really a book about just his survival.” I struggle. It a book about “our” struggle. It answers one very important question that beautifully ties together the world of philosophy, the world of religion, the world of science …“Why are we?”. These worlds are not really disjoint, and so it is no surprise that this one question can be grappled with from many angles. The answer science gives us is rather unsatisfying if not positively distressing. It essentially says we do not have much of a purpose other than to procreate and try to improve our species to survive in the changing environment. Life only strives to survive and expand, it says. You and I are mere cogs in this giant gear system, each one thinking it is special. That brings us to philosophy’s attempt to grapple with the purpose of our existence. The premise is that there must be some meaning to why we are. And finally religion’s attempt to provide an answer that satisfies the sense of purpose we all need to survive. To survive. We are all surviving, we are all struggling. Maybe not struggling in a ready visible way, but we are struggling to understand our place in time and space. More importantly, struggling to find the reason for our existence.

This book helps bring some direction to our search for that answer. The book’s colourful, evocative, vivid and sometimes gory images are like a dream. Sometimes too hard to believe, but at the same time very tangible. Even obvious. The story, through the hero, challenges some of the notions of faith. At the same time, the story, again through the hero, vehemently supports the notions of faith. The book claims that it will make you believe in God. It does. But it is not exactly what you might be led to believe when you read that line first…or even when you read it here. It will not just make you believe in God, but it will tell you why there is no way to live without believing. There is a memorable line in the book which I quote here. “It was my first clue that atheists are my brothers and sisters of a different faith,and every word they speak speaks of faith. Like me, they go as far as the legs of reason will carry them - and then they leap.” In another quote about agnostics, the book says “ Doubt is useful for a while. We must all pass through the garden of Gethsemane…But we must move on. To choose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to chooseing immobility as a means of transportation”. The book builds its case very well. And in the shattering final few pages, forces you to see why belief is what keeps us all going in life. Belief not in any particular man, nor idol, not in any particular scripture or song, not in any particular house nor priest, but belief in that there has the be an answer. It cannot be chaos. The place given to the method of science is very high in the whole book. Every argument the hero makes is bolstered with enough scientific reasoning. But scientific reasoning only works to solve some of his more immediate problems. To solve his biggest problem, not how to survive, but why to survive, he had to go beyond.

Fiction, is nothing but mangling of the fact to bring out the essence of the message. There is a sentence in the book that says something to the same effect as the previous sentence, only it says it better. This is truly exemplified by this story. It was a heartening and rejuvenating read for me. There are three parts to the book. The first part is about Piscine Molitor Patel’s childhood in Pondicherry. His interactions with his parents, his brother, his teachers at school, the animals in his father’s zoo and the various religious faiths in secular India. This part was thrilling because I could relate to a lot of his childhood memories and a lot of the author’s very accurate observations about India. I have been to several Indian Coffee Houses in India and can vouch for the squareness of the tables, the high ceilings and the slow whilr of the ceiling fans hanging from long shafts. I can vouch for the heavenly transformation of leftover batter into an oothappam. The nostalgia got me hooked, but the second part about Pi’s struggle to survive for 227 days on a lifeboat, against and with Dennis Parker, the fully grown Royal Bengal Tiger, made me go on. The evocative, vivid language describes a near surreal experience. The third and final part, that wraps up the story at exactly the hundredth chapter, or rather opens in right up again, is the most riveting and honest. The story is rich, the writing and imagination mind blowing, but what worked for me most of all was that I could relate to Pi’s ideas about the true meaning of religion, and its indispensability.

Here are some memorable lines from the book.

“Father saw himself as part of New India – rich, modern and as secular as ice-cream.”

“I have heard nearly as much nonsense about zoos as I have about God and religion.” – Pi on why animals would prefer zoos compared to the wild.

“I was named after a swimming pool.” – Pi explaining how he came to be knows as Piscine Molitor Patel.

“The first time I went to an Indian restaurant in Canada I used my fingers. The waiter looked at me critically and said, “Fresh off the boat, are you?” I blanched. My fingers, which a second before had been taste buds savouring the food a little ahead of my mouth, became dirty under his gaze. They froze like criminals caught in the act. I didn’t dare lick them. I wiped them guiltily on my napkin…I picked up the knife and fork. I had hardly ever used such instruments. My hands trembled. My sambar lost its taste.” – what a magnificient example of Yann Martel’s ability to get into Pi’s mind.

“I was more afraid that in a few words thrown out he might destroy something that I loved. What if his words had the effect of polio on me? What a terrible disease that must be if it could kill God in man.” – Pi’s interactions with Mr. Satish Kumar, his science teacher.

“It was my first clue that atheists are my brothers and sisters of a different faith, and every word they speak speaks of faith. Like me, they go as far as legs of reason will carry them - and then they leap.”

“Very few castaways can claim to have survived so long at sea as Mr. Patel, and none in the company of an adult Bengal tiger.” – from Mr. Okamoto’s report on Pi’s ordeal.

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Death of a Salesman - A play by Arthur Miller about the reality of The American Dream

May 29th, 2005 admin

DeathOfASlagesMan Cover ImageI read this play in a single sitting. The play is written in a style that helps you draw the imagery, the sounds, sights and smells intended by the author. Arthur Miller, who passed away this year, wrote this Pulitzer Prize winning play in 1949. It was converted to a movie in 1952. It helped my understanding of the “American Dream”, a phrase I have heard mentioned many times in the USA. It added a new perspective to my understanding of this phrase. “American Dream” to me brought visions of owning a house, a car, raising a family and making money. Death of a Salesman added to that image a new shade. The cost. At what cost do you live the American Dream? What moral and social pressures do you have to overcome to live this dream? What is this dream worth? Is this the dream one should go after? What if your understanding of the dream is wrong? What if this realization comes too late in life?Death of a Salesman is a poignant story about growing turmoil in an aging man’s soul. His confidence in his values and benevolent trust in the society’s morality are eroded gradually by reality. He never is able to find a clear direction or a satisfying reason for the way his and his family’s life turned out. Searching forever to find the point at which his “dream” betrayed him, the Salesman, tries to find his peace by making the biggest deal of his life. He kills himself in the hope that what he could not achieve in life, could be achieved by his death, in the form of insurance money that his family could use and remember him by.

The story is told in a series of conversations between the salesman, Willy Loman, his grown up sons, Biff and Happy, his wife Linda, with occasional, yet crucial conversations with Willy’s neighbour Charlie, Charlie’s son and Biff’s childhood classmate Bernard, and Willy’s brother Ben. Willy believes that to be “well liked” is the most important qualification of a salesman and for that matter, any individual. It is the sole criterion that decides a person’s success in life. Biff, endowed with loads of the “well liked” character, was his favourite son, in whom he lay all his hope. Biff turns out to lose his way in education and life. Charlie, Willy’s neighbour, who has a vision attuned to reality, is looked at by Willy as an innocuous bystander. Linda, Willy’s wife is the ever supporting and loving wife, who has never felt it necessary to correct Willy’s viewpoint of the world, partly because she herself has been drawn into his charm at selling the idea of his dream. Ben, Willy’s brother whom Willy idolizes because of his success, is the epitome of where Willy is hoping to reach one day.

Willy’s grown up sons are failures in life, though they want to do the right things and do love their parents. Willy himself is old and his tact at selling “with a smile and a shoeshine” are lost. He realizes that the dream has eluded him. He is confused by and unable to overcome the pain of realizing that it all went wrong somewhere. He lives in a life interspersed with flashbacks to a happy time, drawn back to the harshness of his real failures. Dejection reaches unbearable proportions, caused by slow but overpowering realization that all that he lived by and thought mattered were misplaced ideals. He ends his life with a hope to leave back something. At last, at least, a small piece of the dream he had promised his family. Charlie, at the end of the play brings out the subtlties of this act. Why Willy committed it and why he must not be blamed for doing what he did. “A salesman is got to dream”, says Charlie. This is basically the reason for whatever success Willy had in his younger days. A salesman has got to charm his customers, a salesman has got to beileve in what he is selling, even if it does not deserve that respect. Willy was a salesman and he knew only the materialistic aspect, the undying ambition, the big success associated with the American Dream. He sold himself to this dream, and finally the dream sold him.

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Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance - a good book about what’s good

April 30th, 2005 admin

ZMM Cover ImageOn one of my usual stops at the Barnes and Noble coffee shop the girl across the counter saw Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, by Robert Pirsig, in my hand. As the steamer was getting ready, she asked if it were a good book. I smiled. “Yes, it is pretty good. Needs some stamina to get through it.”, I said. She said, “Yeah, I started to read it, but then, have never gotten back to finishing it”. I picked up my tall steamer a few moments later and as I searched for a place to sit and continue reading this book for the second time, I realized I had given her, firstly, partial information, which is pardonable, and secondly, lied.It is a good book. And it is a book about precisely that statement. What is good? I never told her that. And secondly, it is untrue that it takes a lot of stamina to get through. If anything, it gives a lot of stamina. It is a fascinating journey through the minds of a man, the author, and the person he once used to be. It is a taut and lively discussion about interesting questions. About what is quality? What is good? What makes it all tick? And at places the points the author makes are dazzling. I do not necessarily understand what he intended with this book, but I sure am happy to have read it and understood some of the points he made. This is an attempt to put down some of those points, often in his own words, to help me recollect some of the main lessons I learnt from this book, and also to let others get a glimpse of the book and thus be encouraged to read it. Snippets of the book are just that. Snippets. They can not do justice to the completeness, continuity or the overall message of the book. But some snippets are so stark and clear, that I feel they do a mighty good job just standing there on their own like stark, jagged monoliths of sparkling character rising up above the continuity of the blue waters.

Before I paste some of the snippets from the book here, let me tell you that this is not a book only about motorcycle maintenance. It attempts to use motorcycle maintenance as one of the activites humans might involve in. The book is primarily an attempt to understand quality, and that question pervades everything. Motorcycle maintenance is just a subject the author is comfortable with and uses for some examples and analogies.

Snippets from the book

The Buddha, the Godhead, resides quite as comfortably in the circuits of a digital computer or the gears of a cycle transmission as he does at the top of a mountain or in the petals of a flower.

You can’t really think hard about what you’re doing and listen to the radio at the same time.

After a while he says, “Do you believe in ghosts?”
“No,” I say
“Why not?”
“Because they are un-sci-en-ti-fic.”
The way I say this makes John smile. “They contain no matter,” I continue, “and have no energy and therefore, according to the laws of science, do not exist except in people’s minds.”
The whiskey, the fatigue and the wind in the trees start mixing in my mind. “Of course,” I add, “the laws of science contain no matter and have no energy either and therefore do not exist except in people’s minds. It’s best to be completely scientific about the whole thing and refuse to believe in either ghosts or the laws of science. That way you’re safe. That doesn’t leave you very much to believe in, but that’s scientific too.”

A classical understanding sees the world primarily as underlying form itself. A romantic understanding sees it primarily in terms of immediate appearance. If you were to show an engine or a mechanical drawing or electronic schematic to a romantic it is unlikely he would see much of interest in it. It has no appeal because the reality he sees is its surface. Dull, complex lists of names, lines and numbers. Nothing interesting. But if you were to show the same blueprint or schematic or give the same description to a classical person he might look at it and then become fascinated by it because he sees that within the lines and shapes and symbols is a tremendous richness of underlying form.

What makes his world so hard to see clearly is not its strangeness but its usualness. Familiarity can blind you too.

There is a perennial classical question that asks which part of the motorcycle, which grain of sand in which pile, is the Buddha. Obviously to ask that question is to look in the wrong direction, for the Buddha is everywhere. But just as obviously to ask that question is to look in the right direction, for the Buddha is everywhere.

No one then would see the ghost that Phædrus pursued, but I think now that more and more people see it, or get glimpses of it in bad moments, a ghost which calls itself rationality but whose appearance is that of incoherence and meaninglessness, which causes the most normal of everyday acts to seem slightly mad because of their irrelevance to anything else. This is the ghost of normal everyday assumptions which declares that the ultimate purpose of life, which is to keep alive, is impossible, but that this is the ultimate purpose of life anyway, so that great minds struggle to cure diseases so that people may live longer, but only madmen ask why. One lives longer in order that he may live longer. There is no other purpose. That is what the ghost says.

Not everyone understands what a completely rational process this is, this maintenance of a motorcycle. They think it’s some kind of a “knack” or some kind of “affinity for machines” in operation. They are right, but the knack is almost purely a process of reason, and most of the troubles are caused by what old time radio men called a “short between the earphones,” failures to use the head properly. A motorcycle functions entirely in accordance with the laws of reason, and a study of the art of motorcycle maintenance is really a miniature study of the art of rationality itself.

Precision instruments are designed to achieve an idea, dimensional precision, whose perfection is impossible. There is no perfectly shaped part of the motorcycle and never will be, but when you come as close as these instruments take you, remarkable things happen, and you go flying across the countryside under a power that would be called magic if it were not so completely rational in every way. It’s the understanding of this rational intellectual idea that’s fundamental. John looks at the motorcycle and he sees steel in various shapes and has negative feelings about these steel shapes and turns off the whole thing. I look at the shapes of the steel now and I see ideas. He thinks I’m working on parts.I ‘m working on concepts.

I’ve noticed that people who have never worked with steel have trouble seeing this…that the motorcycle is primarily a mental phenomenon. They associate metal with given shapes…pipes, rods, girders, tools, parts…all of them fixed and inviolable, and think of it as primarily physical. But a person who does machining or foundry work or forge work or welding sees “steel” as having no shape at all. Steel can be any shape you want if you are skilled enough, and any shape but the one you want if you are not. Shapes, like this tappet, are what you arrive at, what you give to the steel. Steel has no more shape than this old pile of dirt on the engine here. These shapes are all out of someone’s mind. That’s important to see. The steel? Hell, even the steel is out of someone’s mind. There’s no steel in nature. Anyone from the Bronze Age could have told you that. All nature has is a potential for steel. There’s nothing else there. But what’s “potential”? That’s also in someone’s mind! — Ghosts.

The real purpose of scientific method is to make sure Nature hasn’t misled you into thinking you know something you don’t actually know.

If the purpose of scientific method is to select from among a multitude of hypotheses, and if the number of hypotheses grows faster than experimental method can handle, then it is clear that all hypotheses can never be tested. If all hypotheses cannot be tested, then the results of any experiment are inconclusive and the entire scientific method falls short of its goal of establishing proven knowledge.
About this Einstein had said, “Evolution has shown that at any given moment out of all conceivable constructions a single one has always proved itself absolutely superior to the rest,” and let it go at that. But to Phædrus that was an incredibly weak answer. The phrase “at any given moment” really shook him. Did Einstein really mean to state that truth was a function of time? To state that would annihilate the most basic presumption of all science!

He is sitting by a footpath on a beautiful windswept hillside overlooking the Yellow Sea. The rice in the terrace below the footpath is full-grown and brown. His friends look down at the sea with him seeing islands far out from shore. They eat a picnic lunch and talk to one another and to him and the subject is ideographs and their relation to the world. He comments on how amazing it is that everything in the universe can be described by the twenty-six written characters with which they have been working. His friends nod and smile and eat the food they’ve taken from tins and say no pleasantly.

The questions he had asked about infinite hypotheses hadn’t been of interest to science because they weren’t scientific questions. Science cannot study scientific method without getting into a bootstrap problem that destroys the validity of its answers. The questions he’d asked were at a higher level than science goes. And so Phædrus found in philosophy a natural continuation of the question that brought him to science in the first place, What does it all mean? What’s the purpose of all this?

Kant called his thesis that our a priori thoughts are independent of sense data and screen what we see a “Copernican revolution.” By this he referred to Copernicus’ statement that the earth moves around the sun. Nothing changed as a result of this revolution, and yet everything changed. Or, to put it in Kantian terms, the objective world producing our sense data did not change, but our a priori concept of it was turned inside out. The effect was overwhelming. It was the acceptance of the Copernican revolution that distinguishes modern man from his medieval predecessors.

It’s a problem of our time. The range of human knowledge today is so great that we’re all specialists and the distance between specializations has become so great that anyone who seeks to wander freely among them almost has to forego closeness with the people around him. The lunchtime here-and-now stuff is a specialty too.

In all of the Oriental religions great value is placed on the Sanskrit doctrine of Tat tvam asi, “Thou art that,” which asserts that everything you think you are and everything you think you perceive are undivided. To realize fully this lack of division is to become enlightened.
Logic presumes a separation of subject from object; therefore logic is not final wisdom. The illusion of separation of subject from object is best removed by the elimination of physical activity, mental activity and emotional activity. There are many disciplines for this. One of the most important is the Sanskrit dhyna, mispronounced in Chinese as “Chan” and again mispronounced in Japanese as “Zen.” Phædrus never got involved in meditation because it made no sense to him. In his entire time in India “sense” was always logical consistency and he couldn’t find any honest way to abandon this belief. That, I think, was creditable on his part.

The real University, he said, has no specific location. It owns no property, pays no salaries and receives no material dues. The real University is a state of mind. It is that great heritage of rational thought that has been brought down to us through the centuries and which does not exist at any specific location. It’s a state of mind which is regenerated throughout the centuries by a body of people who traditionally carry the title of professor, but even that title is not part of the real University. The real University is nothing less than the continuing body of reason itself.

Rotisserie assembly is actually a long-lost branch of sculpture, so divorced from its roots by centuries of intellectual wrong turns that just to associate the two sounds ludicrous.

We’re living in topsy-turvy times, and I think that what causes the topsy-turvy feeling is inadequacy of old forms of thought to deal with new experiences. I’ve heard it said that the only real learning results from hang-ups, where instead of expanding the branches of what you already know, you have to stop and drift laterally for a while until you come across something that allows you to expand the roots of what you already know. Everyone’s familiar with that. I think the same thing occurs with whole civilizations when expansion’s needed at the roots.

The trouble is that essays always have to sound like God talking for eternity, and that isn’t the way it ever is. People should see that it’s never anything other than just one person talking from one place in time and space and circumstance. It’s never been anything else, ever, but you can’t get that across in an essay.

Another thing that depressed him was prescriptive rhetoric, which supposedly had been done away with but was still around. This was the old slap-on-the-fingers- if-your-modifiers-were-caught-dangling stuff. Correct spelling, correct punctuation, correct grammar. Hundreds of rules for itsy-bitsy people. No one could remember all that stuff and concentrate on what he was trying to write about. It was all table manners, not derived from any sense of kindness or decency or humanity, but originally from an egotistic desire to look like gentlemen and ladies. Gentlemen and ladies had good table manners and spoke and wrote grammatically. It was what identified one with the upper classes.
In Montana, however, it didn’t have this effect at all. It identified one, instead, as a stuck-up Eastern ass.

Quality — you know what it is, yet you don’t know what it is. But that’s self-contradictory. But some things are better than others, that is, they have more quality. But when you try to say what the quality is, apart from the things that have it, it all goes poof! There’s nothing to talk about. But if you can’t say what Quality is, how do you know what it is, or how do you know that it even exists? If no one knows what it is, then for all practical purposes it doesn’t exist at all. But for all practical purposes it really does exist. What else are the grades based on? Why else would people pay fortunes for some things and throw others in the trash pile? Obviously some things are better than others — but what’s the “betterness”? — So round and round you go, spinning mental wheels and nowhere finding anyplace to get traction. What the hell is Quality? What is it?

“Heaven above” fades from meaning when space-age consciousness asks, Where is “above”? But the fact that the old routes have tended, because of language rigidity, to lose their everyday meaning and become almost closed doesn’t mean that the mountain is no longer there. It’s there and will be there as long as consciousness exists.

As a result of his experiments he concluded that imitation was a real evil that had to be broken before real rhetoric teaching could begin. This imitation seemed to be an external compulsion. Little children didn’t have it. It seemed to come later on, possibly as a result of school itself.
That sounded right, and the more he thought about it the more right it sounded. Schools teach you to imitate. If you don’t imitate what the teacher wants you get a bad grade. Here, in college, it was more sophisticated, of course; you were supposed to imitate the teacher in such a way as to convince the teacher you were not imitating, but taking the essence of the instruction and going ahead with it on your own. That got you A’s. Originality on the other hand could get you anything…from A to F. The whole grading system cautioned against it.

The purpose of abolishing grades and degrees is not to punish mules or to get rid of them but to provide an environment in which that mule can turn into a free man.

This surprising result supported a hunch he had had for a long time: that the brighter, more serious students were the least desirous of grades, possibly because they were more interested in the subject matter of the course, whereas the dull or lazy students were the most desirous of grades, possibly because grades told them if they were getting by.

Mountains should be climbed with as little effort as possible and without desire. The reality of your own nature should determine the speed. If you become restless, speed up. If you become winded, slow down. You climb the mountain in an equilibrium between restlessness and exhaustion. Then, when you’re no longer thinking ahead, each footstep isn’t just a means to an end but a unique event in itself. This leaf has jagged edges. This rock looks loose. From this place the snow is less visible, even though closer. These are things you should notice anyway. To live only for some future goal is shallow. It’s the sides of the mountain which sustain life, not the top. Here’s where things grow.

Mental reflection is so much more interesting than TV it’s a shame more people don’t switch over to it. They probably think what they hear is unimportant but it never is.

He wrote in one paper, “These estheticians think their subject is some kind of peppermint bonbon they’re entitled to smack their fat lips on; something to be devoured; something to be intellectually knifed, forked and spooned up bit by bit with appropriate delicate remarks and I’m ready to throw up. What they smack their lips on is the putrescence of something they long ago killed.”
Now, as the first step of the crystallization process, he saw that when Quality is kept undefined by definition, the entire field called esthetics is wiped out — completely disenfranchised — kaput. By refusing to define Quality he had placed it entirely outside the analytic process. If you can’t define Quality, there’s no way you can subordinate it to any intellectual rule. The estheticians can have nothing more to say. Their whole field, definition of Quality, is gone.

You take your analytic knife, put the point directly on the term Quality and just tap, not hard, gently, and the whole world splits, cleaves, right in two…hip and square, classic and romantic, technological and humanistic…and the split is clean. There’s no mess. No slop. No little items that could be one way or the other. Not just a skilled break but a very lucky break. Sometimes the best analysts, working with the most obvious lines of cleavage, can tap and get nothing but a pile of trash. And yet here was Quality; a tiny, almost unnoticeable fault line; a line of illogic in our concept of the universe; and you tapped it, and the whole universe came apart, so neatly it was almost unbelievable. He wished Kant were alive. Kant would have appreciated it. That master diamond cutter. He would see. Hold Quality undefined. That was the secret.

Thus did he seek to turn the attack. The subject for analysis, the patient on the table, was no longer Quality, but analysis itself. Quality was healthy and in good shape. Analysis, however, seemed to have something wrong with it that prevented it from seeing the obvious.

What was behind this smug presumption that what pleased you was bad, or at least unimportant in comparison to other things? It seemed the quintessence of the squareness he was fighting. Little children were trained not to do “just what they liked” but — but what? — Of course! What others liked. And which others? Parents, teachers, supervisors, policemen, judges, officials, kings, dictators. All authorities. When you are trained to despise “just what you like” then, of course, you become a much more obedient servant of others…a good slave. When you learn not to do “just what you like” then the System loves you.

Now he had that whole damned evil dilemma by the throat. The dilemma all the time had this unseen vile presumption in it, for which there was no logical justification, that Quality was the effect of subjects and objects. It was not! He brought out his knife.
“The sun of quality,” he wrote, “does not revolve around the subjects and objects of our existence. It does not just passively illuminate them. It is not subordinate to them in any way. It has created them. They are subordinate to it!

In the area of Religion, the rational relationship of Quality to the Godhead needs to be more thoroughly established, and this I hope to do much later on. For the time being one can meditate on the fact that the old English roots for the Buddha and Quality, God and good, appear to be identical.

Poincaré concluded that the axioms of geometry are conventions, our choice among all possible conventions is guided by experimental facts, but it remains free and is limited only by the necessity of avoiding all contradiction. Thus it is that the postulates can remain rigorously true even though the experimental laws that have determined their adoption are only approximative. The axioms of geometry, in other words, are merely disguised definitions.
Then, having identified the nature of geometric axioms, he turned to the question, Is Euclidian geometry true or is Riemann geometry true?
He answered, The question has no meaning.
As well ask whether the metric system is true and the avoirdupois system is false; whether Cartesian coordinates are true and polar coordinates are false. One geometry can not be more true than another; it can only be more convenient. Geometry is not true, it is advantageous.

The subliminal self, Poincaré said, looks at a large number of solutions to a problem, but only the interesting ones break into the domain of consciousness. Mathematical solutions are selected by the subliminal self on the basis of “mathematical beauty,” of the harmony of numbers and forms, of geometric elegance. “This is a true esthetic feeling which all mathematicians know,” Poincaré said, “but of which the profane are so ignorant as often to be tempted to smile.” But it is this harmony, this beauty, that is at the center of it all.

A person who sees Quality and feels it as he works is a person who cares. A person who cares about what he sees and does is a person who’s bound to have some characteristics of Quality.

Your mind was already thinking ahead to what you would do when the cover plate was off, and so it takes a little time to realize that this irritating minor annoyance of a torn screw slot isn’t just irritating and minor. You’re stuck. Stopped. Terminated. It’s absolutely stopped you from fixing the motorcycle.

What you’re up against is the great unknown, the void of all Western thought. You need some ideas, some hypotheses. Traditional scientific method, unfortunately, has never quite gotten around to say exactly where to pick up more of these hypotheses. Traditional scientific method has always been at the very best, 20-20 hindsight. It’s good for seeing where you’ve been. It’s good for testing the truth of what you think you know, but it can’t tell you where you ought to go, unless where you ought to go is a continuation of where you were going in the past. Creativity, originality, inventiveness, intuition, imagination…”unstuckness,” in other words…are completely outside its domain.

The difference between a good mechanic and a bad one, like the difference between a good mathematician and a bad one, is precisely this ability to select the good facts from the bad ones on the basis of quality. He has to care!

I think the basic fault that underlies the problem of stuckness is traditional rationality’s insistence upon “objectivity,” a doctrine that there is a divided reality of subject and object. For true science to take place these must be rigidly separate from each other. “You are the mechanic. There is the motorcycle. You are forever apart from one another. You do this to it. You do that to it. These will be the results.”
This eternally dualistic subject-object way of approaching the motorcycle sounds right to us because we’re used to it. But it’s not right.

The past cannot remember the past. The future can’t generate the future. The cutting edge of this instant right here and now is always nothing less than the totality of everything there is.

Value, the leading edge of reality, is no longer an irrelevant offshoot of structure. Value is the predecessor of structure.

To put it in more concrete terms: If you want to build a factory, or fix a motorcycle, or set a nation right without getting stuck, then classical, structured, dualistic subject-object knowledge, although necessary, isn’t enough. You have to have some feeling for the quality of the work. You have to have a sense of what’s good. That is what carries you forward. This sense isn’t just something you’re born with, although you are born with it. It’s also something you can develop. It’s not just “intuition,” not just unexplainable “skill” or “talent.” It’s the direct result of contact with basic reality, Quality, which dualistic reason has in the past tended to conceal.

Now finally let’s get back to that screw.
Let’s consider a reevaluation of the situation in which we assume that the stuckness now occurring, the zero of consciousness, isn’t the worst of all possible situations, but the best possible situation you could be in. After all, it’s exactly this stuckness that Zen Buddhists go to so much trouble to induce; through koans, deep breathing, sitting still and the like. Your mind is empty, you have a “hollow-flexible” attitude of “beginner’s mind.” You’re right at the front end of the train of knowledge, at the track of reality itself. Consider, for a change, that this is a moment to be not feared but cultivated. If your mind is truly, profoundly stuck, then you may be much better off than when it was loaded with ideas.

Stuckness shouldn’t be avoided. It’s the psychic predecessor of all real understanding. An egoless acceptance of stuckness is a key to an understanding of all Quality, in mechanical work as in other endeavors. It’s this understanding of Quality as revealed by stuckness which so often makes self-taught mechanics so superior to institute-trained men who have learned how to handle everything except a new situation.
Normally screws are so cheap and small and simple you think of them as unimportant. But now, as your Quality awareness becomes stronger, you realize that this one, individual, particular screw is neither cheap nor small nor unimportant. Right now this screw is worth exactly the selling price of the whole motorcycle, because the motorcycle is actually valueless until you get the screw out. With this reevaluation of the screw comes a willingness to expand your knowledge of it.
With the expansion of the knowledge, I would guess, would come a reevaluation of what the screw really is. If you concentrate on it, think about it, stay stuck on it for a long enough time, I would guess that in time you will come to see that the screw is less and less an object typical of a class and more an object unique in itself. Then with more concentration you will begin to see the screw as not even an object at all but as a collection of functions. Your stuckness is gradually eliminating patterns of traditional reason.
In the past when you separated subject and object from one another in a permanent way, your thinking about them got very rigid. You formed a class called “screw” that seemed to be inviolable and more real than the reality you are looking at. And you couldn’t think of how to get unstuck because you couldn’t think of anything new, because you couldn’t see anything new.

Phædrus felt that at the moment of pure Quality perception, or not even perception, at the moment of pure Quality, there is no subject and there is no object. There is only a sense of Quality that produces a later awareness of subjects and objects. At the moment of pure quality, subject and object are identical. This is the tat tvam asi truth of the Upanishads, but it’s also reflected in modern street argot. “Getting with it,” “digging it,” “grooving on it” are all slang reflections of this identity. It is this identity that is the basis of craftsmanship in all the technical arts. And it is this identity that modern, dualistically conceived technology lacks. The creator of it feels no particular sense of identity with it. The owner of it feels no particular sense of identity with it. The user of it feels no particular sense of identity with it. Hence, by Phædrus’ definition, it has no Quality.

The result is rather typical of modern technology, an overall dullness of appearance so depressing that it must be overlaid with a veneer of “style” to make it acceptable. And that, to anyone who is sensitive to romantic Quality, just makes it all the worse. Now it’s not just depressingly dull, it’s also phony. Put the two together and you get a pretty accurate basic description of modern American technology: stylized cars and stylized outboard motors and stylized typewriters and stylized clothes. Stylized refrigerators filled with stylized food in stylized kitchens in stylized houses. Plastic stylized toys for stylized children, who at Christmas and birthdays are in style with their stylish parents. You have to be awfully stylish yourself not to get sick of it once in a while. It’s the style that gets you; technological ugliness syruped over with romantic phoniness in an effort to produce beauty and profit by people who, though stylish, don’t know where to start because no one has ever told them there’s such a thing as Quality in this world and it’s real, not style. Quality isn’t something you lay on top of subjects and objects like tinsel on a Christmas tree. Real Quality must be the source of the subjects and objects, the cone from which the tree must start.

Peace of mind isn’t at all superficial to technical work. It’s the whole thing. That which produces it is good work and that which destroys it is bad work. The specs, the measuring instruments, the quality control, the final check-out, these are all means toward the end of satisfying the peace of mind of those responsible for the work. What really counts in the end is their peace of mind, nothing else.

I say inner peace of mind. It has no direct relationship to external circumstances. It can occur to a monk in meditation, to a soldier in heavy combat or to a machinist taking off that last ten-thousandth of an inch. It involves unselfconsciousness, which produces a complete identification with one’s circumstances, and there are levels and levels of this identification and levels and levels of quietness quite as profound and difficult of attainment as the more familiar levels of activity. The mountains of achievement are Quality discovered in one direction only, and are relatively meaningless and often unobtainable unless taken together with the ocean trenches of self-awareness…so different from self-consciousness…which result from inner peace of mind.
This inner peace of mind occurs on three levels of understanding. Physical quietness seems the easiest to achieve, although there are levels and levels of this too, as attested by the ability of Hindu mystics to live buried alive for many days. Mental quietness, in which one has no wandering thoughts at all, seems more difficult, but can be achieved. But value quietness, in which one has no wandering desires at all but simply performs the acts of his life without desire, that seems the hardest.

I like the word “gumption” because it’s so homely and so forlorn and so out of style it looks as if it needs a friend and isn’t likely to reject anyone who comes along. It’s an old Scottish word, once used a lot by pioneers, but which, like “kin,” seems to have all but dropped out of use. I like it also because it describes exactly what happens to someone who connects with Quality. He gets filled with gumption.
The Greeks called it enthousiasmos, the root of “enthusiasm.” which means literally “filled with theos,” or God, or Quality. See how that fits?
A person filled with gumption doesn’t sit around dissipating and stewing about things. He’s at the front of the train of his own awareness, watching to see what’s up the track and meeting it when it comes. That’s gumption.

If you’re going to repair a motorcycle, an adequate supply of gumption is the first and most important tool. If you haven’t got that you might as well gather up all the other tools and put them away, because they won’t do you any good.

We see much more of this loneliness now. It’s paradoxical that where people are the most closely crowded, in the big coastal cities in the East and West, the loneliness is the greatest. Back where people were so spread out in western Oregon and Idaho and Montana and the Dakotas you’d think the loneliness would have been greater, but we didn’t see it so much.

A person who knows how to fix motorcycles…with Quality…is less likely to run short of friends than one who doesn’t. And they aren’t going to see him as some kind of object either. Quality destroys objectivity every time.

Rhetoric is an art, Aristotle began, because it can be reduced to a rational system of order.
That just left Phædrus aghast. Stopped. He’d been prepared to decode messages of great subtlety, systems of great complexity in order to understand the deeper inner meaning of Aristotle, claimed by many to be the greatest philosopher of all time. And then to get hit, right off, straight in the face, with an asshole statement like that! It really shook him.

“What moves the Greek warrior to deeds of heroism,” Kitto comments, “is not a sense of duty as we understand it…duty towards others: it is rather duty towards himself. He strives after that which we translate `virtue’ but is in Greek areté, `excellence’ — we shall have much to say about areté. It runs through Greek life.”
There, Phædrus thinks, is a definition of Quality that had existed a thousand years before the dialecticians ever thought to put it to word-traps. Anyone who cannot understand this meaning without logical definiens and definendum and differentia is either lying or so out of touch with the common lot of humanity as to be unworthy of receiving any reply whatsoever. Phædrus is fascinated too by the description of the motive of “duty toward self ” which is an almost exact translation of the Sanskrit word dharma, sometimes described as the “one” of the Hindus. Can the dharma of the Hindus and the “virtue” of the ancient Greeks be identical?
Then Phædrus feels a tugging to read the passage again, and he does so and then — what’s this?! — “That which we translate `virtue ‘ but is in Greek `excellence.”‘
Lightning hits!
Quality! Virtue! Dharma! That is what the Sophists were teaching! Not ethical relativism. Not pristine “virtue.” But areté. Excellence. Dharma! Before the Church of Reason. Before substance. Before form. Before mind and matter. Before dialectic itself. Quality had been absolute. Those first teachers of the Western world were teaching Quality, and the medium they had chosen was that of rhetoric. He has been doing it right all along.

“And what is written well and what is written badly…need we ask Lysias or any other poet or orator who ever wrote or will write either a political or other work, in meter or out of meter, poet or prose writer, to teach us this?”
What is good, Phædrus, and what is not good…need we ask anyone to tell us these things?
It is what he was saying months before in the classroom in Montana, a message Plato and every dialectician since him had missed, since they all sought to define the Good in its intellectual relation to things. But what he sees now is how far he has come from that. He is doing the same bad things himself. His original goal was to keep Quality undefined, but in the process of battling against the dialecticians he has made statements, and each statement has been a brick in a wall of definition he himself has been building around Quality. Any attempt to develop an organized reason around an undefined quality defeats its own purpose. The organization of the reason itself defeats the quality. Everything he has been doing has been a fool’s mission to begin with.

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It’s the mud, It’s the mud

September 27th, 2004 admin

Just finished watching Comedian with Srini and Shyamala at my place. This was my second time watching the movie and my favourite part of the movie were the credits. The song that accompanies the credits is called Waters of March. One of the most beautiful pieces of poetry I have heard in a while. It was written by Antonio Carlos Jobim and performed in the movie by Susannah McCorkle. Simple. Stark. Beautiful.

A stick, a stone, it’s the end of the road,
It’s the rest of a stump, it’s a little alone,
It’s a sliver of glass, it is life, it’s the sun,
It is night, it is death, it’s a trap, it’s a gun.
The oak when it blooms, a fox in the brush,
The nod of the wood, the song of a thrush,
The wood of the wing, a cliff, a fall,
A scratch, a lump, it is nothing at all.
It’s the wind blowing free, it’s the end of a slope,
It’s a bean, it’s a void, it’s a hunch, it’s a hope.
And the riverbank talks of the Waters of March,
It’s the end of the strain, it’s the joy in your heart.
The foot, the ground, the flesh and the bone,
The beat of the road, a sling-shot stone,
A truckload of bricks in the soft morning light,
The shot of a gun in the dead of the night.
A mile, a must, a thrust, a bump,
It’s a girl, it’s a rhyme, it’s a cold, it’s the mumps.
The plan of the house, the body in bed,
And the car that got stuck, it’s the mud, it’s the mud.
Afloat, adrift, a flight, a wing,
A cock, a quail, the promise of spring.
And the riverbank talks of the Waters of March,
It’s the promise of life, it’s the joy in your heart.
A point, a grain, a bee, a bite,
A blink, a buzzard, a sudden stroke of night,
A pin, a needle, a sting, a pain,
A snail, a riddle, a wasp, a stain.
A snake, a stick, it is John, it is Joe,
A fish, a flash, a silvery glow.
And the riverbank talks of the Waters of March,
It’s the promise of life in your heart, in your heart.
A stick, a stone, the end of the load,
The rest of a stump, a lonesome road.
A sliver of glass, a life, the sun,
A night, a death, the end of the run.
And the riverbank talks of the Waters of March,
It’s the end of all strain, it’s the joy in your heart.

The movie is basically about the travails of a stand-up comedian. Two comedians in particular were primarily highlighted in the movie. The early struggles of a novice. Orny Adams. And the second life for a stalwart like Jerry Seinfeld, who after his immensely popular TV series, Seinfeld, tries to get back into the groove of doing live stand up. And succeeds.

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