Cool Gate-Level Logic Simulation Tool

November 14th, 2009 admin

Dr. Mark Hill of University of Wisconsin Madison pointed out the existence of this really cool learning aid to his class Logic Design class in October 2009. He also provides some guidelines about how to use the tool. Give it a shot if you like to play around with AND, OR, NOT gates and build logic. You can build “memory” structures too, something that can remember state. The following text is from Dr. Hill’s email. Enjoy.

Here is a cool tool for playing with and visualizing simple logic gates:

http://joshblog.net/projects/logic-gate-simulator/Logicly.html

Build your own circuit:

(a) Drag over a few gates in the middle.
(b) Drag few switches to the left side as inputs
(c) Drag one or more light bulbs to right as output(s)
(d) Connect items together with wires by clicking on needed endpoints.

Operate it:
(e) Click on switches to toggle inputs between one (blue) and zero (white).
(f) Watch the wires change state — one (blue) and zero (white) and light bulbs go on (blue) or off (off).

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The Mathematics of Mortgage, Overpayment and Refinancing Decisions

October 7th, 2009 admin

With mortgage interest rates at historically low values refinancing home loans is an option currently being investigated by many here in the US. I, too, considered the same issue recently and discovered that this is not an easy decision to make. I developed a spreadsheet to figure out if this was a good idea. You can download this spreadsheet by clicking on this link (Microsoft Excel 2003). In general, the spreadsheet was also intended to show how loan repayment terms are set, how banks make money on loans, when overpaying monthly payments makes sense etc. Feel free to use the spreadsheet and improve upon it or tailor it to your situation. The rest of this article is a tutorial on how to make decisions about mortgages, how mortgages work in general, whether overpayment of the monthly payment makes sense, and what to consider when refinancing. The focus will be on the mathematical aspects of the decision making.

Taking an Interest in Loan Mathematics

Let us first try to understand, in simple terms, the philosophy of any loan process. In particular, I’ll focus on the home loan process. You intend to purchase a house. Why purchase, and not continue to rent? Well, that is an interesting question in its own right. But, to not get distracted, let us say you got tired of the rent going up each year, or moving every few years, or actually figured that it was economically better to buy rather than rent. So, you decide to buy a house. You need money. You go to the bank (a mortgage lender). Say you want $200K ($200 thousand). The bank gives you the money at a certain interest rate, say, 5%. What does that really mean? Here in the US, the norm is to calculate the remaining balance every month. The 5% is actually 12*0.4166%, where 0.4166%, or 0.004166, is the monthly interest rate. That is, after the first month, the outstanding balance is $200K + $200K*0.004166. In other words, because the bank did you a favor by giving you $200K which you did not have, it wants $200K*0.004166, which is $833.33. As a quick aside, notice that because the interest is calculated monthly, the annual interest rate is, in reality, greater than the 5% we started with. The real annual interest rate would be 1.004166^12=0.0511, or in other words 5.11%. Nevertheless, the common practice is to quote this as 5% base interest rate, and that is fine, as long as we know what it means.

Now, continuing with our example, in the first month, the bank wants you to pay $833.333 as interest accrued over that month. Say you paid exactly $833.33. The outstanding balance at the beginning of the second month would then be exactly 200K again. And at the end of that second month, the interest would be $833.33 again. Say you pay the bank $833.33 again. The outstanding balance at the beginning of the third month will again be $200K. This pattern could go on endlessly. You may argue that this looks like renting. Every month you pay the rent. You don’t see any of that money. But with buying there is a fundamental difference. After 10 years of doing the above, that is, paying $833.33 each month, you decide to sell the house. The house itself, typically, appreciates in value. Say the value of the house is now $300K. You sell and make a $100K profit. You paid 10*12*$833.33 over the 10 years, which, coincidentally, comes out to exactly 100K. What that means is you basically lived in a house for 10 years for free (of course you did pay property taxes, painted the house a couple of times, bought a lawn mower, replaced light bulbs, and took care of the house in general). But overall, it sounds like a pretty sweet deal.

One word we all glossed over in this discussion is “typically”. Home prices “typically” appreciate. The bank does not gloss over that word. If the value of the house drops, say 10 years later, the value of the house drops to 150K. You have paid your “rent” for 10 years, and are ready to sell. The bank wants its 200K back, since you never paid any principal all these years. The sale, however, would only fetch you 150K. The bank has the title (ownership document) to the house. It will not let you sell. It says give us 50K first, then sell for 150K, and gives us that 150K as well. You do not have 50K to give to the bank. The loan is foreclosed - the bank keeps the title to the house, but the bank does not like this situation. The bank now owns the house. But the house is worth only 150K. The bank does not want to be in the business of selling a house, especially one that won’t bring them their original 200K back.

To prevent this scenario, the bank employs two interesting tactics. Firstly, it does not let you pay only the interest of $833.33 each month. It requires you to pay off some of that principal on top of the interest. Secondly, the amount of principal you pay atop the interest is calculated such that the loan is guaranteed to be paid off in a certain “term”. Further, to keep the payment terms simple for the customer, the total payment each month remains unchanged. It is important to recognize that calculation of interest depends only on the interest rate. The calculation of the monthly payment which includes both the interest and some piece of the principal requires the notion of the “term”. The payment has to at least be the interest due that month. It is a bit more than that each month because of the principal paid. (In reality it ends up being even more because you pay a part of the annual property taxes, hazard insurance etc. each month – but we can ignore that for this discussion). Paying a bit of principal each month causes the outstanding balance reduce each month; this causes the interest payment to reduce a bit each month. This allows you to pay off even more principal each month, and that cascading effect finally ends exactly when the term runs out. Throughout this period, as mentioned earlier, the actual monthly payment does not change. The reduction in interest is compensated for by the increase in principal payment, which in turn reduces the outstanding balance and causes the next month’s interest payment to reduce even further. This constant monthly payment (interest + principal) is carefully calculated to achieve this effect. “Term” is the number of months the loan is supposed to be fully paid off by. The shorter the term, the better the rates, in general, because to pay off a loan faster (shorter term), you have to pay greater amounts each month. So there needs to be an incentive for you to pay more money each month to the bank. And that incentive is the lower rate. Otherwise, wouldn’t you rather go with the longer term, pay less to the bank each month and invest that leftover in the stock market?

By forcing you to pay a bit of principal each month, the bank is earning less interest each month. But the good news is that, if after 10 years, you decide to sell the house and the value of the house is only 150K instead of the 200K you bought it for, the bank risks less. You have already paid off about 40K. So the loss for the bank is only 10K instead of 50K, if it had allowed you to only pay the interest each month. So in other words, the bank wants you to pay principal each month not to help you reduce your interest payments, but rather to help it stave off any chance of losing money on the house if prices fall.

Black Magic - Calculating the Monthly Payment

When you talk to a mortgage banker on the phone, you will notice that they like to quickly tell you that your monthly payment would be some x amount. They use the phrase, “run the numbers”, with some pride. It is interesting and empowering to understand how the monthly payment is actually calculated.

We have all the information we need. At the beginning, we have a 200K loan. Let us use L to indicate this “Loan Amount”. Say, the monthly rate, which is 0.004166 in our example, is represented by c. Say, n represents the term, n months. Say, P represents the monthly payment. We want to determine P ourselves, instead of depending on our loan officer to tell us that information.

After the first month, the outstanding balance is:
L + L*c - P
= L(1+c) - P
This is because the loan amount L increases by the monthly interest amount, L*c, but then we make the payment of P. This is the outstanding balance for the second month.
At the end of the second month, the outstanding balance is:
{L(1+c) - P}(1+c) - P
= L(1+c)^2 - P(1+c) - P
= L(1+c)^2 - P{(1+c)+1}
At the end of the third month, the outstanding balance is
= {L(1+c)^2 - {P(1+c)+P}} (1+c) - P
= L(1+c)^3 - P {(1+c)^2 + 1+c) + 1}
If you are still with me, you may start seeing a pattern emerge. After n months, the outstanding balance will be:
= L(1+c)^n - P {(1+c)^(n-1) + (1+c)^(n-2) + … + (1-c)^2 + (1+c) + 1}
Which, can be rewritten as
= L(1+c)^n - P {1 + (1+c)^2 + (1+c)^3 + … (1+c)^(n-1)}
Now. The punch line. After n months, we *know* that the outstanding balance should be 0. So
0 = L(1+c)^n - P {1 + (1+c)^2 + (1+c)^3 + … (1+c)^(n-1)}
P {1 + (1+c)^2 + (1+c)^3 + … (1+c)^(n-1)} = L(1+c)^n
P = L(1+c)^n/{1 + (1+c)^2 + (1+c)^3 + … (1+c)^(n-1)}
There you go. That is P, your payment each month. Phew! Done? Well, almost. The denominator in the above calculation is not Excel-friendly. Remember, you want this to go into a spreadsheet that can help you with decision making. The number of terms depends on n. Not good. Let’s try to find a closed form solution for the denominator. Thankfully, it is not hard. Notice that the denominator is of the form:
1 + a + a^2 + a^3 + … + a^(n-1)
where I replaced 1+c with a. Let us call the above sum X.
X = 1 + a + a^2 + a^3 + … + a^(n-1)
Adding a^n to both sides (as an aside, this kind of intuition is the reason Kavita hates math)
X + a^n = 1 + a + a^2 + a^3 + … + a^(n-1) + a^n
Shamelessly using some more of that darned intuition, we extract out a common factor, a, from the last n terms to get to:
X + a^n = 1 + a {1 + a + a^2 + … + a^(n-1)}
But notice that the stuff inside the {} is precisely what we defined X to be. So:
X + a^n = 1 + a*X
X + a*X = 1 + a^n
X * (1 + a) = 1 + a^n
Therefore,
X = (1-a^n)/(1-a)
Replacing a with (1+c),
X = (1-(1+c)^n)/(1-(1+c))
X = (1-(1+c)^n)/(-c)
X = ((1+c)^n - 1)/c
Finally, substituting this into the equation for P:
P = L.c.(1+c)^n/{(1+c)^n - 1}
Now we are seriously done with this calculation.

Let us try to use L=200K, c=0.004166 and n=360 (a 30-year term, which is quite common in the US), and calculate P, your monthly payment. P comes out to $1073.64. The interest component is $833.33, and the principal is $1073.64 - $833.33 = $240.31. Because you pay off a tiny bit of the 200K principal, the outstanding balance at the beginning of the second month is $200000 - $240.31 = $199759.69. The interest for the second month is therefore going to be lesser than $833.33. In fact, it is $832.33. This $1 we pay less in interest goes towards the principal, which increases from $240.31 in the first month to $241.31 in the second. Looking a few months into this process the interest payments are $833.33, $832.33, $831.33, $830.32, $829.30, etc., and principal payments are $240.31, $241.31, $242.32 etc.

Fig1Fig2

Click on the thumbnails above to see the monthly and cumulative payment schedules. The first figure shows how much interest, principal and total payment needs to be made each month. The second figure translates that to a cumulative amount, that is, at any given point in time it tells us how much interest, principal and total payment you would have made. It is interesting to note from the first figure that in the first few years the bank makes most of the money it expects to make on the house (the interest tails off during the later years). The second figure shows that by the end of the loan term, you’d pay about 200K in interest!

Does Overpayment Make Sense?

At this point it is important to understand that by paying off the $240.31, $241.31, $242.32 etc. principal each month the benefit you are getting is in terms of reducing the interest you pay each month. By actually being vested in the house, that is, by owning that piece of the house, you do not get any direct benefit; when the house sells, its value will not depend on how much of the house you actually own. Think of it like this - the principal payments you make are investments where the rate of return is determined by the reduction in the interest payments.  Let us take an example. Say, somehow, you convince the bank to allow you to pay only the interest, $833.33, each month. You take the difference between your bank-determined payment of $1073.64 and your negotiated payment of $833.33 and invest it ($1073.64 - $833.33 = 240.31) in the stock market at 10% annual rate of return. Either way, after 10 years, we’d have invested $240.31*12*10 = $28,837.2. Since the investment is accruing a rate of return each month, we need to carefully calculate how much profit we make (I use an Excel spreadsheet to do this, however, we could use a closed form expression similar to the one we developed above). At a 10% rate of return, we make about $21,000. If we put this same $241.31 into the principal payment each month, after 10 years, our profit (the interest savings compared to the case where we do not pay any principal payment each month) is $8,478. Of course, the actual profit by investing is reduced by the tax you need to pay on that profit. Regardless, it is still a sweet deal to invest the money in the stock market, provided you can guarantee the 10% return on investment. Even if we assume a safe 6% rate of return (after taxes and everything), we stand to make $10,900 in the stock market vs. the $8,478 we “make” by putting it into the house. In any case, this is a moot point, since the bank will not allow you to make interest payments only. What this discussion is intended to drive home is that it may not make sense to overpay above the monthly payment of $1073.64, unless you intend to stay at the house for a shorter term. If you stay for a shorter term in the house, then the stock market rate of return may be too risky, whereas the paying into the house guarantees a certain rate of return.

Fig3Fig4

The figures above show monthly and cumulative payments for a 15 year loan term - that is a loan for which the monthly payment has been calculated such that is supposed to be paid off in full in 15 years. Typically, 15 year loans have a slightly better rate than a 30 year loan, to give you the incentive to give up more of your cash each month in payment. However, since I am continuing to use a 5% interest rate to plot these curves, these really indicate how your overall payment time line changes if you overpay each month. The overpayment amount is basically the difference between the monthly payment shown in this figure and the minimum monthly payment shown in the previous section. As you can see here, even in the first month you pay as much towards principal as interest, and secondly, by the end of the loan term, you pay only about $80K in interest. The advantage of this scheme is that you are required to only pay in accordance with the 30-year term, but you may choose to overpay if you wish to reduce your interest payments. That way, if you occasionally miss your overpayment target, that is fine as long as you pay the minimum payment for that month. That said, like we discussed above, it may still make sense to not overpay if you can invest that money instead.

Does Refinancing Make Sense?

Now that we have understood some of the nuances of the loan process, let us consider how to make a refinancing decision. Refinancing is the process of getting a new loan in order to pay off an existing loan. If this were a free process, that is, there were no cost of refinancing, the decision would have been very simple. If the new interest rate is better than the old interest rate refinancing would make sense. However, there is, typically, a cost involved. The question then changes to how long do you need to stay in the same house after refinancing to recoup the cost of refinancing. Let us take an example. Say you currently have a 5% loan with $200K outstanding, and a different lender offers a 4% loan, with a $2000 closing cost. The current monthly payment is $1073.64. The new monthly payment is $954.83. Since the interest rate is lower, you’ll likely be paying less interest each month with the new loan. So over time the cumulative interest you pay the bank may be lesser with the new loan. For this example, after 1 year the total interest paid with the current loan is about $9900, whereas with the new loan it is $7900. This is about $2000 in savings in 1 year just from the interest rate reduction. Since the interest you pay is like the fees the bank charges for its services, you have found a low-fee option. So in 1 year you have overcome the $2000 cost of refinancing. From year 2 onward you stand to gain by doing this refinance. (Note: I am ignoring that interest is tax-free money, that is, you get the taxes you paid on the interest in your next year’s tax returns. The savings from interest reduction are therefore about 20 to 25% lesser than the savings I am quoting here and in the spreadsheet. It is easy to fix that though, if you choose to. Instead of saving $2000, you’d have actually only saved $1500 if you fall in the 25% tax rate bracket.)

Now, let us see what happens to the rest of the money you are paying each month, the principal. With the current loan the cumulative principal payment after 1 year is
$2950. With the new loan the cumulative principal paid in 1 year is $3522. That is, you own more of the house. But this is not important by itself. Yes, you own more of the house, but the net is you converted some cash into a bit of house. If you had not owned any of the house you’d have been left with cash which you could have invested and actually grown it. The house grows or falls equally in value regardless of whether you are invested in it or not.

But there is one more component to this equation other than the interest and principal. The overall monthly payment has reduced from $1073.64 to $954.83. That is a freeing up of $118.81 each month to be invested as you choose. Even if this was invested conservatively in a 6% rate of return investment, you end up with $1472 at the end of the first year. This is money that would not have been available at all with the current loan. So in fact, at the end of year 1, you have save $2000 + $1472, the former coming from the interest savings and the latter from investing the cash freed up. This means, the $2000 cost of refinancing will actually be made up even sooner than 1 year. Given the above 6% assumption it is more like 7 months. If you plan to live in this house for 7 months or more, go for the refinancing

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The figure above shows the time to recoup the cost of refinancing, considering only the interest savings and also considering the case where the overall reduction in monthly payment can be invested at 6%.

Acknowledgements

My understanding of the issues involved in refinancing, in particular, and mortgages, in general, is based upon my going through this decision-making process recently. Much of this understanding was developed during discussions with my friends Gordie and Srini. If you find flaws in my understanding please let me know. Some online resources that helped me were http://www.mtgprofessor.com/formulas.htm , http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Refinancing and http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mortgage.

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iPhone 3G Yes!

July 19th, 2009 admin

Though not an i-Phone addict yet, I am now an iPhone user. From the time I have been introduced to the iPhone, by friends, I have constantly admired the versatility and the sheer quality of the product. And after a few bad experiences with our previous phone service with Sprint we decided to switch to AT&T. It has been a relatively seamless switch. But the highlight has been the iPhone.

Even before I opened the iPhone box I was impressed with the immaculate packaging. The phone was surprisingly easy to learn using, and any non-obvious features were easy to search for on the web. The ability to download the applications of our choice and even develop your own applications is a tribute to and celebration of innovation and creativity embodied by the iPhone. I could rave about this Swiss-army knife of mobile gadgets or I could argue that no one really uses a Swiss-army knife in normal life. Indeed, I have not yet figured out how best to effectively use this phone. Some of the features that translate into time and money savings are the GPS when you are lost on the road, the ability to look up the Internet to get answers to simple questions when you are in doubt, the ability to entertain yourself when you have time to kill (books, podcasts, puzzles, YouTube, newspapers, iPod music), the ability to shoot video and ship them to your friends (thus avoiding hours of procrastination) and the ability to synchronize the contact list and calendar entries with Google. In short, this tool allows you to use small pockets of time more efficiently, either the educate or entertain yourself, or to rewind. This is important, to me at least, because then the time with family does not need to be compromised for trying to rewind in my own way. Simple example: if I feel like listening to Louis Armstrong I can listen to him and other jazz artists on Pandora while driving back from work. Then once I am home, I can spend time with Kavita, as she wants me to.

So, finally, thank you, Anu, Shankar and Sandeep, for live demos and persuasive nudges, and thanks Kavita for the final push. I’m on board and I am enjoying the ride.

(I posted this entire entry from the iPhone. I am getting very good at typing on this, something I was not so sure about only two days ago.)

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What should I do with my used PVC shower curtain liner?

July 19th, 2009 admin

When replacing the PVC shower curtain liner today, I was wondering what kind of plastic it was and whether it was recyclable.

Here is what I learnt about the various types of plastics. The following list is from Wikipedia’s article on Plastics.

  1. PET (PETE), polyethylene terephthalate: Commonly found on 2-liter soft drink bottles, water bottles, cooking oil bottles, peanut butter jars.
  2. HDPE, high-density polyethylene: Commonly found on detergent bottles, milk jugs.
  3. PVC, polyvinyl chloride: Commonly found on plastic pipes, outdoor furniture, siding, floor tiles, shower curtains, clamshell packaging.
  4. LDPE, low-density polyethylene: Commonly found on dry-cleaning bags, produce bags, trash can liners, and food storage containers.
  5. PP, polypropylene: Commonly found on bottle caps, drinking straws, yogurt containers, Lego building blocks.
  6. PS, polystyrene: Commonly found on “packing peanuts”, cups, plastic tableware, meat trays, take-away food clamshell containers
  7. OTHER, other: This plastic category, as its name of “other” implies, is any plastic other than the named #1–#6, Commonly found on certain kinds of food containers, Tupperware, and Nalgene bottles.

Three main things I learnt are:

1. The biggest difficulty with recycling plastics is that these types tend to get mixed up when people try to keep the plastics aside for recycling, and separating them is a labor intensive problem - often not worth the trouble - and thus, unfortunately, sending all this plastic, irrespective of the good intentions of recycling them, into landfills.

2. PET (Coke and Pepsi bottles) is very different from PVC (Gatorade bottles and my problem at hand, shower curtain liners), both of which are different form HDPE (milk jugs and detergent bottles)! PVC if mixed with PET, can ruin not only the batch of PET that is being recycled, it can even hurt the recycling machine! So be careful with recycling PVC.

3. Polystyrene (PS), which is used in “styrofoam” to-go food takeout boxes, is typically not recycled because it is not cost-effective to do so (maybe because of how cheap it is and also because of the food contamination that goes with the territory). It almost definitely ends up in landfills, and only centuries of wait may see its end. Along the way, during those centuries, who know how much damage it causes to the living things that inadvertently ingest it.

So, all in all, recycling is not as easy as dumping anything plastic into the recycling bin; it is important to be aware of the differences between plastics. It is important also to educate ourselves about how to ensure that what we think we are recycling actually gets recycled. Styrofoam is best avoided. Maybe we need to leave repeated comments on restaurant websites that they should avoid using styrofoam-based to-go boxes, and instead switch to paper (like Chinese-takeout buckets).

I am not sure how well I will be able to follow all of my own suggestions. The intention here is to start thinking about these issues.

A couple of other interesting websites I found:

1.  http://www.townofcary.org/depts/pwdept/recycling/trivia.htm

2.  http://www.greensangha.org/PVCaction.PDF

Now, the question still remains. What do I do with the used PVC shower curtain liner? I don’t know if Cary recycles PVC. I need to find out and act accordingly. And maybe it is best to stop buying these liners, and instead switch to a cloth-only liner or some bio-degradable variety.

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Have people forgotten Shiva?

July 19th, 2009 admin

Hinduism has a notion of trinity - three forces that drive the universe. The trinity consists of the creator, the sustainer and the destroyer (personified respectively by Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva). I do not claim to know the spiritual aspect of this concept. However, the applicability of this concept to the physical things in our lives is almost obvious. Everything physical comes into being, serves its purpose during its lifetime and is (or rather, should be) eventually destroyed. These three forces must guide each other in an eternal cycle, rather than in a linear progression. That which is destroyed, must contribute to the creation, and that which is created must be destroyable. This is not philosophy; this is just the principle of equilibrium and balance.

The spark of a creator’s idea, must be weighed and studied for the sustainability and fesibility of that which the idea generates. Once the creative force is assured of the sustainability and usefulness of its creation, it must also analyze the destructibility of the creation. Only when the idea passes both these tests - useful when in existence and destroyable when not useful - is the creation sustainable. To be destroyed does not mean to make it go away or vanish. Being destroyed here means to change form. The death of one is the birth of another. The death of a wine glass when it slips from your hand and shatters is the birth of a hundred pieces of glass. The death of those hundred pieces in a kiln if the birth of liquid silica, which dies to takes up another form when shaped into a glass window.

Sunstainable creation is dependent on reliable destruction, which in turn is dependent on future creation. In our lives nowadays, I wonder if the creator’s dependence on the destroyer is being slowly forgotten. Things are getting created with no concern for its destructibility (and often with no concern even for sustainability). Creation is driven by sustainability and usefulness, which is fine. However, the second part of the pre-creation analysis, destruction, is becoming only a secondary concern.

A case in point is plastics. Plastics are almost irreplaceable in certain situations. However, its usage cycle has overflowed its equilibrium bounds. The ease of creating plastics and the convenience of sustaining plastics have together overpowered the responsibility of destroying them. The durability of plastics, which is often a big positive, makes it equally hard to destroy. And when used in scenarios where such durability becomes a liability, the benefits of plastics are questionable. Wikipedia’s article on Plastics has this, somewhat scary, line. “Due to their relatively low cost, ease of manufacture, versatility, and imperviousness to water, plastics are used in an enormous and expanding range of products, from paper clips to spaceships. They have already displaced many traditional materials, such as wood; stone; horn and bone; leather; paper; metal; glass; and ceramic, in most of their former uses.” Notice that all the things that plastics have replaced are either natural or biodegradable, or both. I agree that there are some organic palstics in nature, and there are some man-made biodegradable plastics; however, the point I am trying to make is not hijacked by either of these. From wall-to-wall carpets to the teacups used by chai-wallahs in roadside dhabas, from ziploc bags to microwaveable idli-plates, plastics have slowly but surely taken over our lives. In this takeover, not only has the senseless overuse of plastics created a dangerous imbalance in the natural world, it has paralyzed us into a state of helplessness compliance. Plastics have destroyed the destroyer.

In many uses of plastics, they are certainly replaceable by other, more responsibly created, products. We, the users and sustainers of plastics, should vote down the creators’ decision to create them by reducing the use of plastics where possible (take your cloth grocery bags with you when you go shopping, use glass or steel dinner ware at home and paper or corn-based plates at picnics). When usage is not avoidable, we can restore the balance somewhat by paying due homage to the destroyer (use plastic that is recyclable and recycle the plastic that you use). A moments thought before consumption can not only help restore some balance in the cycle of creations and destruction, it can also help restore a sense of control over our destiny.

On my part, I make it a point to visit the Shiva temple of Cary once a month. It is a large, airy temple, with the added convenience of a drive-through pradakshina (the act of revenential, clockwise, walking around a Hindu temple’s central structure). Each time I go, the priest walks up to my car, greets me, and asks, “What do you have?”. Upon telling him about my problems, he points me to the correct deity to go pay my respects to. His utterance may seem strange for temple-talk, “Go to number 4″, but what he really means is, “Deity no. 4 will rid you of all your troubles and send you home free and uplifted”. The temple, for some strange secular reasons, likes to identify itself with a small, unadorned, non-ostentatious, green sign with white lettering that reads, “Cary Recycling Center”.

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A Fleeting Experience

December 26th, 2008 admin

We are driving towards Orlando in our overloaded Pontiac Vibe. Anant is in the driver’s seat; Kavita is sitting behind him, with a mountain of boxes and bags filled with camping stuff, food, clothes, maps, cameras and stuff for our week-long road trip almost leaning onto her to her right and from behind her. We are listening to Ira Glass’s “This American Life” CD. Up until a few minutes ago, I was reading the New Yorker magazine that Anant had brought with him from California. But as the light outside faded, I could not read any more and my mind wandered.

I was looking out of my passenger-side window when I noticed a tall tower with two red lights, horizontally arranged atop the tower, a thin cloud of mist in front of it and a dark night behind. To be more accurate, I only saw the lights, and I imagined the tower’s existence. As those lights were flying past me, I craned my neck for a few seconds trying to keep my sights on those two red lights. In those seconds I realized something. The fleeting vision of those lights behind a cloud of dark, foggy mist and my fruitless attempt at trying to hold on to that view made me realize how I (we all, perhaps) crave focus. We want to be able to hold on to experiences. One after the other after the other. I realized, also, how fleeting the nature of all experiences is. What you experience, what you take in, is different from what you set out to experience, what you probably wanted to take in. The moment that you want to experience, is past by the time you actually are able to take it in. In this constant rush of fleeting images, fleeting thoughts, fleeting sensory experiences, we keep chasing that impossible goal. We crave an experience we can truly and completely call our own - an experience we can hold by the scruff of its neck and do with what we choose to. But alas, it unfailingly slips out of our grasp, always leaving us with a few tattered thoughts and shadowy images - and even these leftovers belong to a different moment altogether, not the one we were trying to go after. And what you take in is really what you want to take in. Can you ever truly experience a moment, when time keeps the scenery ever-changing? What you can hold on to is that which is not changing with time - that which is independent of time. And maybe the only such thing, which is within you control, is that which is within you. That which you can truly experience, necessarily, has to be an idea that is of your own creation - an idea that which you can readily recreate, that which is truly obedient. Does that mean that, that which is outside, that which is real, is really not? And that which is hypothetical, imaginary, and, obedient, is the reality we can experience?

These rhetorical questions apart, one other thing these fleeting lights maybe helped me see is one reason why I like photography. For once, I can hold time nearly still. A shutter speed of 1/1000th of a second is pretty close to being momentary for me - short enough to not allow multiple thoughts to cross my mind. And when I look at that picture later, I can study every detail at my leisure, without the nagging fear of something discreetly changing in the bottom left corner of my view while I was busy breathing in the top right.

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Anekantavada - Multiplicity of viewpoints

September 19th, 2008 admin

I opened wikipedia by chance this morning and the very first article I saw was on Anekantavada, a concept from Jain Philosophy, which observes and explains that there is always multiplicity of view points when trying to comprehend any truth. Limited, partial or conditional view points can lead to different interpretations of any truth. It is therefore important to respect the existance of other view points, while at the same time recognizing the fallibility of your own. Apparently the story of the blind men and the elephant is often used to explain this concept. This struck me as fascinating because only a few months back, I had used the same example to reach an almost identical philosophy! This philosophy may also help us understand the underlying meaning behind the millions of Gods that some religions accept - the acceptance of the existance of those millions of view points.

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Sandeep’s New Rating System

September 17th, 2008 admin

Sandeep Somani came up with this scheme of rating TV shows, movies, plays etc. It takes away the relative interpretation and quantization associated with stars, and instead gets to the meat of the matter with an absolute measure in terms of the dollar value you are willing to pay to see the show/movie etc. To add to your ability to express your dissatisfaction you may also choose to quote how much money you will need to be paid, to go see the show. For example, if you hate a show, but your wife wants you to go see it again, she’d have to pay you some amount of money before you will budge. A third innovation of this scheme (other than the abslouteness of a dollar value it allows and the negative dollar value it allows) is the ability to express “repeat potential” by saying how the dollar value you rate it at changes with each extra viewing. The rating allows changes based on “viewing format” (DVD vs movie hall vs TV) and “control potential” (access to the remote control to allow fast forwarding through non-sensical song sequences improves the rating a bit) . I buy it. A dollar value does make it a little bit harder to average across a collection of ratings, unless the number of reviews is large, because the absoluteness of the measure can be significantly skewed by what people consider a “normal” show should cost. That said, the dollar vlaue reveals a lot about the reviewer and what is being reviewed in a certain independent fashion, without being tied to a normalized scale. Could be an interesting experiment. Below is the explanation of the scheme in Sandeep’s own words.

So, the idea is that rather than give a rating of good, bad, hopeless, etc., quote a dollar amount you would be willing to pay to watch a certain movie, play etc. given that the alternative is to watch a random sitcom on TV (like what i am doing right now ! )

Some examples  - You could say,
I’ll pay upto $100 to watch     O for the first time
…           $40    …        O for the second time
…           $60     …        spamalot for the first time
…           $20     …        spamalot for the second time
…           $60     …        sheer madness for the first time

for something more familiar (note the negative)
I’ll pay upto  -$50     …       taare zameen par for the first time in theatre
…                   - $10    …       taare zameen par for the first time on DVD with full access to remote
…                   - $40     …      taare zameen par for the first time on DVD with no access to remote
…                   - $100    …     taare zameen par for the second time anyhow  :)

Negative amount means you will have to pay me to watch this (this may be substituted by equivalent beverage servings)
So you see, this system is much more flexible and informative than the normal yahoo rating
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The 3 Ds

September 17th, 2008 admin

My father’s maternal uncle, Dr. K. Ramamurthy, whom I call uncle also, responded to my email about “Games Indians Don’t Win” with some of his own words of wisdom, which I believe will be useful to many people; I reproduce them here with his permission. Read and think about it.

During my management consultancy days, I’d start my classes with “Three Ds”: Discipline, Dedication, and Devotion.

We have to start anything in life, commencing with our earliest education, with the rigor of Discipline: regulated studies in terms of time allocation, understanding of what we study, practicing to become perfect, and humility not to be carried away by early successes (or depressed with early failures). You keep at it in spite of obstacles to reach the goal you set for yourself.

When you’re sufficiently integrated in a disciplined web of working (doing things), you get to the stage of Dedication - a stage where you totally, intrinsically, get merged in what you do and what you want to achieve. You breathe, live, and think all the while of your chosen field and its nuances to be able to excel. That’s how great writers, poets, scientists, musicians, innovators, nation builders, and freedom fighters like Gandhi dedicated their whole life to a chosen cause.

From this stage comes Devotion, where your “life and work” become a Religion unto itself. That’s how Thyagaraja, Purandara, Meerabai, Aurobindo, CV Raman in our life time and people like Einstein worshiped what they chose to do. All the greatest achievers have gone through these stages, knowingly or unknowingly.

Consider the training of today’s top notch players who reach the very top, their journey begins at very early age and goes on unhindered and unfettered for several years to reach the top. Certain failures are inevitable during this long journey but they’ve to trod on incessantly to reach the peak.

Of all who tried, the number who did or did not make the final assault is immaterial. The very process and trial is ennobling - in fact, religious. It’s like seeking the elusive God, but there is bliss!!

In such pursuit, the teacher becomes the most important being in our life. It’s said in our scriptures that one cannot attain the highest pinnacle without a “Teacher.” In our daily prayers, we do give homage to our teacher: Guru Brahma, Gurur Vishnuhu, Gurudevo Maheswaraha, Guru Sakshsat Parabrahma, Tasmai Sri Gurave Namaha! Discipline starts with respect to the teacher - starting from our parents who are our first teachers, to others who have taught us, guided us, helped us, sustained us, given solace in our trials and difficult patches, and remained our “guiding lights” throughout our life.

Unfortunately, the teacher-taught, trainer-trainee, professor-student, employer-employee relationship has become now too commercialized to nurture a meaningful, respectful, disciplined way in life. Without this kind of moral and ethical approach, the society declines. It’s only the few chosen (by whom, I can’t say!), who are able to fuse the 3-Ds to be the Great in their individual life!!

By our performance, we’re not ONE of those.”

His observations on how to simultaneously achieve happiness (selfish motive) while at the same time being productive to the society (altruistic outcome) by following the course of discipline, dedication and devotion speaks to me and I hope to many of us. He elaborated in a later email thus.

To further elaborate, the first D is the base or foundation on which the second D, dedication, is superimposed. The third D, Devotion, is necessary, along with the other two, for the final outcome, or assault, as it were. That is reaching out to the pinnacle. While the first and second Ds have a continuous nature, the third D could be even ‘momentary or fleeting’ but it’s that fleeting moment - like in deep, prayerful, thought that gives the final ‘push’ and the ‘answer.’

This is referred to in our books of lore about ‘Rishis’ in deep meditation; we see this in our scientists and researchers in their hour of ‘discovery.’ Philosophers of lore were of that genre.

Recently I read of an interview of Dr. Ramachandran, the Neurosurgeon-researcher and author of books on brain structure and functioning. He was alluding to his conversation with Chembe Vaidyanatha Iyer, doyen of Carnatic Music and said that while the music maestro was rendering a raaga and aalaapana, he was ethereal, as if he was in ‘devotional ecstasy.’ At that moment the maestro was not aware of his surroundings, the visitor, or anything else but his music rendition. That is the moment of the third D.

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Bharat Ek Khoj - Shyam Benegal’s discovery of Nehru’s Discovery of India

September 14th, 2008 admin

My good friend, Rajeev, discovered this treasure trove online - Bharat Ek Khoj, a TV series based on Jawahar Lal Nehru’s book, The Discovery of India. Nehru, the first Prime Minister of free India after the British Rule, wrote most of this book while imprisoned. The effort evokes in me pride, respect and awe. Attempting to capture the essence of the spirit and history of India in a 500-odd paged book, is in itself a courageous attempt. Doing so, while in prison, also shows inspiring determination, discipline, value for time and sense of duty. I cannot comment on the literary and factual quality of the book; I have not read it yet. However, this TV series, which started in 1988, is something I can comment on. Directed by one of the great Indian film directors, Shyam Benegal, and with a cast that clearly is stellar when you look back at those names (Om Puri, Roshan Seth, Ashok Kumar, Anjan Srivastav, Sadashiv Amrapurkar, Neena Gupta, Salim Ghouse, Tom Alter etc.) with a couple of decades of work since then for proof, Bharat Ek Khoj is a gem in history of Indian television. Even though I was quite young when this series was on TV, and even though it was quite serious in tone and not a children’s show, I distinctly remember loving it. It’s catchy, yet philosophical, credits set the tone for the self-discovery that the series embodied. The seriousness of the attempt to discover that spirit of Indianness in each episode, the honest, accurate and non-fantastical version of epics and other historic records, and the wonderfully rich use of Hindi and Urdu languages were all aspects of the show that drew me to it. When I watch it today, I can watch it with the same dedication and curiosity to learn about India. I realized that though nostalgia is a part of discovering any such childhood treasure, that is just a fleeting feeling. I have seen several other old TV hits online, such as Ye jo hai zindagi, Hum Log and Mr. Yogi; however, with those the interest typically dies out after a few episodes because the nostalgia wears out and the paucity of quality hits you, and you wonder, “Well, may be it was good in its day, but it is not really that special”. Bharat Ek Khoj, on the other hand, still seems fresh. With each episode, my interest in wanting another one increases rather than diminishes. After 20 years since the show first appeared, I can still learn from it, and formulate a more complete picture of India. I found that series is available in DVD format for purchase here. It is quite expensive, with 2 episodes costing $30. This would run the total series to over $600. So the decision for now, for me, is that I will read the book.

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